well i'm back at school and i'm feeling better than i did at first. i was so restless and uncertain. just about what God wanted for me. there have been so many things going on in my life and in my head and in my heart. it's such a strange and mysterious thing to have happen- when God is doing something to you, and you don't really know what it is, only you have the feeling that He's preparing you for something or almost re-arranging your thought process or your outlook on certain things. i don't know if that really makes any sense, but that's what i'm experiencing. it's really strange but kind of exciting, only confusing, because i can sense that God is teaching me something through this, that I'm growing, only i don't know why things are changing like this. anyway, i've rambled on for far too long about something you probably aren't understanding because i'm not explaining so well. so i'm off! :)