so last night i was so full of caffeine because i was stupid and drank lots and lots of coffee right before bed, and i watched a sappy girly movie and had one of those i-wish-i-was-in-love-moments... except almost as soon as i thought that, i realized that i AM in love. sometimes i've wondered what it feels like to be in love, but how can i wonder when i am already in love with the greatest Man who ever lived? I mean really. I am. In love with my Savior. So someday I may have a grand love story here, but for now my first love is Christ and that fills me with the greatest contentment. SO, now that that's off my mind, let's just say that I had a great day today. Jes and I went Christmas shopping at Target (when I'm in Dayton, I really really miss Target, haha). We had a blast. Ok, random thought----I had a dream last night about finding a 7-11 in Dayton. I love 7-11. Because I love Slurpees. The End. Anyway, so Jes and I went Christmas shopping and got some great things for the fam woohoo! And we also bought the Napoleon Dynamite dvd which we're about to watch. SO, I'm off now because I feel like I'm rambling and I'm anxious about my gay phone that's missing. sigh. later. :)

i don't really have anything to write, but i'd like to give whatever crazy people read this something to read... i've been watching spongebob episodes the princess diaries 2, and muppet christmas carol with jes and eavan and basically chilling this fine COLD day. i've had no motivation to head out into the arctic that is greensboro today, but i'm looking forward to getting out tomorrow for some shopping, yes indeed. so i am missing bryan folk but i'll be seeing some o' them in a couple days which will be grrrreat. and christmas is something for which i canNOT wait! oh and i can't...find my phone. if you haven't noticed, one of the things i listed in my xanga profile under expertise was losing things, so here we go again. haha. i'm pretty sure that it's in our van, but i'll give it a thorough search tonight... so sorry to those of you who i've told i'd call today. my bad... anyway. i'm off to do something, maybe watch a dvd, who knows...

it's oh so nice to be home. i must say that i had a really great trip home. i love to fly and travel and sitting in airports. sure, i'm strange, but i really do love the experience. so now i'm sitting here in our living room watching harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban, looking forward to a christmas party tomorrow night with our church and finally free of the burden of finals!! only... i'm pretty sure that i miss some bryan folks! my new roomie and our "suitemates" (haha!), jackie, rachel, and so many more. but i know that soon enough it will be time to get back to work, finish up planning for the valentine's banquet, and see everyone again. meanwhile, i am enjoying my time at home immensely. even seeing the cats again makes me happy. :) anyway, i'm going back to my movie because i'll soon be getting sleepy and going to bed before church tomorrow and such. buenas noches!

so i should be studying for western civ, buuuut...we're having a dance party in jessica's and andra's room to some classic michael jackson tunes. what could be better?? i mean i did need a study break so we'll be back to work soon, but i'm enjoying a rest from my notes to watch jessica and andra break it down, to be quite honest. so we had a bryan college christmas and hour or so ago and it was just lovely. the jackie and demi christmas will happen when we return after break. ;) anyway, i'm off to finish work etc. HOME TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

XANGA

well it's about that time. i don't think i've ever wanted a week to go by quicker than this one! the irony is that there also doesn't seem to be enough time for me to get everything done. i'm just SO glad that i'll be home this friday!!! i never would have thought i could get this homesick. but i am. i love my friends here but i'm missing my family immensely. i think my sister having surgery and such kind of initiated it. well i do indeed love dayton and bryan and am making a point to enjoy it as much as i can until i head out for an insanely long break! now that i think about it, i'm going to miss everyone SO much! and dayton. because i love dayton. especially when it SNOWS. that's right, friends, we had snow here. not inches, just flurries, but still... it made me happy. and sooo i regret to be off- back to work.

What a weekend! It's seeming like a huge blur to me... I'm getting incredibly antsy to get home for break too!!! Seriously, it seems to be all I can think about haha... Our hall Christmas party was last night. It was great! It lasted about five hours and we went carolling at several houses where Bryan staff etc. lived. And yesterday afternoon, Anneli and I had lunch at Jacob Meyer's. I had such a great time! It was so wonderful to hear from her what her experience has been like in her last four years here. It made me think that I'm not crazy in the ups and downs I'm experiencing. Because I'm seeing lots of changes in me and in how I see certain situations and events, etc. The funny thing is that it's only my first semester of my freshman year, but I've learned SO much. It almost makes me want to write a book or something...lol But basically, I'm learning more than anything how where my focus is affects everything else. For instance, if my focus is on me, even concentrating on trying to improve myself, then I am most likely going to be distracted, be unable to focus on what God wants for me, what He can do with me. I don't want to keep trying to make myself a better person...because how pointless is that?? I can't do that on my own- I fail every time! My only hope is to first and foremost honor Christ and see what He does with me asa result. Consequentially, everything else will work out His way. That makes me happy too. And relieved. Only that's gotta be one of the hardest things in the world- to give up control of areas in my life that I'd like to improve on my own. So yea, there's my rant, and I wasn't expecting to give one this time around but there ya go. So I pretty much just woke up about 40 minutes ago and I'm planning on packing my room up today, which is a headache considering I've got to start studying today too! And then later Rachel and I are going to talk and pray and such. We had the greatest chat last night. And the night before. Rachel, you're the best and your insight and wisdom are so valuable to me! So off I go because I must dry my hair and start the day. haha....

TGIF! It feels like it's Saturday, only it's not. And we have classes. But we didn't have chapel today so I totally slept in until 10:30...How awesome is that?? I feel really rested and really ready to get finals over with. A lot of people I know are already on their way home! I wish I could blink and I'd just be done with all these crazy finals. HA! But it's not really so bad- I only have two days of finals next week- 3 tests to take total. Not too bad at all. I'm pretty sure my two toughest ones are on Friday though. Oh well, it won't be too bad, except for Western Civ, which is bound to be nightmarish... So today is promising, however, despite the fact that Jackie is out of town for the weekend and I miss her muchly. Tonight is the Spiderman 2 showing at Rudd and also the Huston 3rd Christmas party as far as I know.... Off to start the day!

i had such an awesome evening. Julie and I just finished some Christmas party hoppin'. However, much to our dismay, we didn't end up spending any time whatsoever at one such party for a couple very good reasons. We can sum one of those reasons up with three words: very big dog...dark evening...cold fog...I guess that was more than three words... Anyway, we definitely had a good ol' time at the Stonestreets'. Really. I love those two to death. And I love Dr. Meyer's kids who were there. I guess because one reminded me a LOT of Jes. I'm SO glad I get to see him and Eavan a WEEK FROM TOMORROW!! wootwoot! so i'm pretty sure that i'm going crazy here. it's been such a productive day, but i'm feeling kind of rushed to move out of my room, and there's really no reason for me to freak about that... so i'm not going to worry because i've got finals to stress about as it is and as i was discussing with someone this evening, there are more important things to "stress" about. For instance, I wish that I had the angst about my relationship with Christ than I do about school and people and moving out of my room. Anyway, it's almost time for bed- as soon as I finish watching Return of the King (in great anticipation of the extended edition coming out dec.14th...) haha And so, goodnight...

So today is already off to a strange start...There's a freakin' monsoon outside. I went to Col.Pettite's Pres. Election class at 8am. We met in the cafeteria to play Who Wants To Be A Millionaire about current events. Rachel's really sick next door. :( And the end of our hall is flooded due to the aforementioned monsoon. And it's still only 9:54....lol More to come...

Tomorrow is my last day of worldview class and my last day of my pres. election class, so I'm pretty sad. Those are my two favorite classes and I'm most especially going to miss having worldview with John Stonestreet. Maybe I'll take that class again and audit it since it's so great...lol. Maybe no. But anyway, today was insane. Jackie and I had another sleepover last night after I cooked dinner for john and her and me. It was great fun. Both the sleepover and the dinner. I also got some copies of Jonathan's pictures from the banquet- a couple were added to my post below about the banquet. So today began with Concepts of Phys. Fitness class which made me happy only because we were informed that we'll be watching a movie for our final. How awesome is that??! Later today, Jackie and I returned our Harry Potter movie which was great, of course, and we went to WalMart too and then we came back and I got some stuff done before repertoire. Hope I spelled that right... Anyway, Jeremy and David Deuth and Jessica Long and Jessica Reid and Tim St. John among other amazing people performed and man, was I proud. The only one I'd never heard sing was Jessica Reid, and she was so so incredible! So was everyone else. You guys rocked. I also haven't eaten much of anything today just because I wasn't feeling well, but it's ok. I just hope I don't catch anything right in themidst of finals...arg. Oh and how about Jackie leaving for home tomorrow?? :( Well, I guess it's ok since she'll be back Saturday afternoon...woot woot. Just in time for the infamous 1st Long Christmas party....wow! Oh and Friday is the Huston 3rd Christmas shindig YEA! And tomorrow night there are 3 different parties that I'm going to hop to and from- yikes! Well, we all know how much I want to get back to work...HAHA. I'd better go do that anyway. Later.

Well hi there. What a day!!! So I slept in today until 12:15 or so... which means that I got almost 12 hours of sleep last night... yikes! So then I went to lunch and had a good ol' time then headed back to the dorm where I found that Kristen had a bit of a headache (awwww, Kristen). So we decided to make cookies with sprinkles. Then Jessica decided we needed icing for the cookies, so we went to WalMart and got some. Then I came back and Paul and I picked up some pizza for us and Jessi and Trigger and the four of us had a little meeting while we ate dinner. Good times! And then we decided that we need some stuff from WalMart, so Paul and I went for a run ova there. It was a blast. And we had the greatest convo ever on the way back. It mostly consisted of discussing the fact that our focus in life should be vertical. And that the more we look at ourselves and try to make us better people and reform ourselves, the more engulfed we are with ourselves, which is so wrong. As soon as we're looking at ourselves, so many things can come from it: self-pity, pride, failure, etc. Therein lies the irony. I mean, when we look to Christ to give us the grace to live our lives and love Him more instead of trying to find it in ourselves to become better people, God is glorified just so much more I think, and then we're content!! Wow, I hope at least some of that made sense. Anyway, I'm watching an interesting movie until I fall asleep, and I'm falling asleep so........goodnight!

So now I'm editing this for an update and it's 11:30pm on a Saturday night and for some strange reason I'm sitting alone in my room on the computer watching a movie. I believe I've been on social overdrive. Which is cool and everything, but sometimes it's really really nice to have alone time. Sometimes we get tired of being around people and such. Which just means that Demi was able to enjoy what was quite a productive afternoon. Yea. Hope that makes sense. So here's another thing goin on: I'm rediscovering my love for 80's music. (Julie- "Do you remember the time?" hahaha) My beautiful mom made me a compilation of my favorite songs from back in the day and it makes me happy. Oh and tonight my brother hall had a Christmas party and it was pretty fun. The Christmas tree was a very nice touch and so was the Charlie Brown Christmas music playing in the hall. And all the guys were decked out in holiday attire- with ties. I must say that I have a freakin' crush on 4th short. HA! Oh yea and who's heard about the girls' and mine and Anneli's little escapade at the Rhea House the other evening? Eh? lol.... Anneli, you're my hero. I love you!! Ok anyway, I should be getting off to bed, and to be quite honest, now would be a great time for bit o' prayer and such. Quiet time is so GREAT and hard to come by round here... :)

So the day after the Christmas banquet is oh so fun. I'm bumming it down in a sweatshirt and jeans, sitting in the room watching That Thing You Do with Jules. I looove that movie! Yea, relaxing today is a wonderful thing after an entire afternoon yesterday of getting ready for last evening, which was so so much fun. The banquet was lovely, the ladies were beautiful, the guys were handsome and gracious, and our group had a great time afterwards. We ended up baking cookies and playing cards for a bit. Then Anneli, Jonathan, and I ran to rent a movie, only we decided to just borrow The Importance of Being Earnest from someone. Which was great fun. OH! I almost forgot the best part last night- the fact that my date made me the best corsage of all. If you didn't get to see it, shame on you. I mean, it was lit up and everything. So that was special. So was all the picture taking. That was the most eventful part of the evening. Along with Brian McKenney's song...haha. Anyway, I had so much fun and everyone was beautiful and lovely and we had a good time together. The End.